231013

It's another 23 and I'm having bad mood today.

I've changed.

I don't like to talk much 

I prefer to stay a side and observing people quietly.

Bitch everywhere.

A lot of things stressed me up but I didn't get to tell anyone.

I smile but it doesn't mean I'm happy. 

I rather die if I can't do whatever I like or whoever I love

fucking meaningless.

I DON'T LIKE PEOPLE.

010613

愛夠了該走了  但最后又是一句舍不得

看著自己身邊的人來了又走 而自己沒有勇氣接受任何人

最后呆在一旁看著他們再愛別人為別人難過快樂

可能是那一段忘記不了也拋棄不了的回憶在作祟吧

其實我很明白 夢醒了就不在 決定了也就不要再回頭

只是還掙扎著不讓他離開 緊緊抓著的也就只是一片空白

至少這次又輸得心甘情愿 

可能愛情都要經過折磨 但我從來就狠不下心恨你

沒有再見也沒有抱歉 人生本來就有太多的虧欠

來不及對你說要好好過。

200513

I'm sure that you guys have noticed my blog has been dead for two months already huhh, I've been busying with some shows and works.  My weekend was pretty awesome. Thanks God I've something to blog about it. 


Last three Saturday it was a bridal show at Kluang Mall@Johor. I'm glad that im one of the model with another 7 pretty models! At the same time I was pretty nervous because it was my first catwalk! And the wedding dress is so heavy to such a rough girl like me!  HAHA I can't stop talking about this dress because I don't think I've a chance to wear like this tho. HAHAHAHAHA ( I think nobody gonna get married with me! )

I'm kinda love their make up, it makes me look mature. Hmmmm... anyway, I did a few mistakes during the show because I walked too fast. Once I'm nervous, my mind gone blank and I have no idea what to do next although my friends kept remind me what to do.

My partners! 

Jolin, Yorene and June ( She's a Taiwanese! )

With the photographer and he drove us to Kluang.

With the models of the day.

Here are the photo of my look!( Sorry for spamming xP )

I'm gonna show my face up   (Taaaaa- daaaa ! )

Anyway, I look weird with this smile 

hmmpp D:

I want to thanks to Elle hair academy for me to experience this in my life.

The black foundation is so damn smelly and my skin sensitive to this shit :(

Thanks to CK who gave us training two day times in a week.

Thanks to my group leader " Myco n Li hao" for the nice hair design although its so damn big.

And congratz for them because the won the champion for the hair design!

Wooohooooo all the best for the competition in KL!

And I just done my couple photo shooting last Monday.

A nice beach at Desaru@Johor.

The photographers.

And here are the outcomes!

I'm just kinda fall in love with the first photo! Its really awesome!

hahaha and pls ignore my face in the second photo.
And one more thing, WE'RE NOT COUPLE but I know we look exactly like a couple. hahahaha
but please don't get me wrongggggggg D:

This is what I requested to take. hahaha something emo that I can upload at night.

I named it as Peer emo's style. LMAO hahaha

I hope you enjoy reading this post! I mean, seeing all these photos! HAHAHA!

I'm going to take a short nap because I just came back from college after I had my lunch with senior.
Goodbye readers and Happyyyyy 520 ( but I'm still alone like forever ALONE )

Blackness

It's good being strong, but it sucks too when people know that you are strong, and they think that is okay to hurt you.

Sometimes, not everyone you love is going to love you back.

I will keep my distance with everyone and love myself more and more.

Stop being nice to people and don't cry  for what I lost.

I don't hate you and I won't take revenge

 Thanks for the lesson.

The dark side of this world.

Black.

I know no matter how much a person love you,

 don't take it for granted because people get tired eventually.

I'll be strong.

Monday.

The smile on my face doesn't mean my life is perfect. 

It means I appreciate what I have and what God has blessed me with. Dear God, thank you for today, yesterday, & tomorrow. My family, my joys, my sorrows. For all that made me stronger.

Learn to be happy where you are, and God will take you where you want to be.

Thank you for my life. I don't tell you enough but I am so thankful for everything I am blessed with.

Heartbreaks.

Sometimes I'm afraid to love because I knew nothing could last forever.
My heart is dead but he saved me.

RESTART

幾個月沒更新了 熟悉嗎這感覺 

音樂還是很催淚 我愛笑可是我真的不是個樂觀的人

把這三年文章在五分鐘內刪除了 

用很多很多來累積的回憶真的可以用那短短的時間來刪除

一個人久了會孤單 會寂寞

可是一個人很自由 沒爭吵 沒眼淚 所有時間都是自己的

不用為誰改變自己 不用擔心背叛 不用害怕被傷害

這一年內我學到了感情基本就是包容和原諒

這個我學會了 所以不管你怎麼推開我我還是愛了你那麼久 

但始終還是結束了。

就算再忙在狂歡甚至難過以后還是會想起你

那一下的斗嘴也能讓我感受到被保護 那就是你給我的溫柔

可能你對我好一點我就不會那麼喜歡你

不要你難過 我會乖。